hello! you are a very special kitten

filmferyou @ 2009-05-09T01:48:00

2009-05-09T08:48:45Z

i need to stop acting like such a fucking girl sometimes!

<3 both of them-looks corny=(-)wanna see it

2009-03-22T03:12:08Z

real talk

2009-03-21T04:27:53Z

spring 09 almost fucking over! serious hurrah. i'm applying to grad school in august, so stoked on that. im thinking, uni of brighton, uni of london (central saint martins branch), school of visual arts (ny), maybe cal arts in oakland (if god feels like smiting me prob will go here) ...some art school in seattle or canada. anyways, look how soon it is!!

anyways, back in monterey. spring break was a bad joke, im happier here with my 32 of pacifico. wish boyfriend was here! (<3 yous rodrigo) wish brittany was not having the time of her life in puerto rico and drinking/painting with me! (<3 yous gil) or maybe i wish i went there during break...whatever.

i need a job! wah wah! complain complain complain! people are absolutely nuts, did you know this? i finally got my hands on a copy of ghost world for 6$. now i can reread it for the 100th time. what the fuck is this about again?

looking forward to a weekend of:
-seeing mom and moms boyfriend cos they are staying across the universe (aka carmel, fuck you)
-editing ording documentary (barf)
-reading, reading more reading

im assuming ol factory will be my home. wahhh bf and bf come back 2 me.
h8 you bay area, <3 you real life.

my apt only has one bathroom

2009-03-09T22:11:00Z

and my roommate is taking a shower, i need to pee so bad.

so, i figure i need to concentrate on something else, thus todays blog is born.

i'll title this "resolutions"

i'd like to be one of those people who says that they don't have new years resolutions, because usually people don't follow them, therefore making them a waste of time. I've had at least one resolution per year that i stick too, i should be proud of myself, really. my ways of thinking aren't always logical.

anyways, my resolution in 2007 was to learn how to roll the perfect joint. Needless to say, that skill came about when i moved back from england and was depressed. That was it that year. kinda pointless? maybe, maybe not. i'm not a huge smoker anymore but i just love the fact that i can do it.

2008 came along and i had two resolutions:
1.) stay out of trouble (i.e. any court situations/jail/bad people/hospitals)
-this worked, my lifestyle changed a lot this year, which i was happy about. basically it came down to thinking about my actions, and actually caring about life. i guess you can say, this was much more of a resolution compared to 2007. i say whatever, my state of mind changed, which is good, but i still value the pointless skill i desired to posses.
2.)learn to stencil
- saved my life in monterey, art therapy people. anyways, taught myself, great feeling.

so now it's 2009, what's it this year?
read. a lot.
so this is the actual point of the post, i've been reading a shit load. what have i read so far this year?
1.) IV- klosterman
2.) tank girl- hewett/martin
3.) bomb the suburbs- wimsatt
4.) i hope they serve beer in hell- max
5.) art and culture- greenburg
6.) tricked- robinson
7.) rip it up (black experience in rock n roll)- various authors

anyways, that's mixed in with a shit load of film theory essays, and hurrah, that's the list as of 3/9/2009.

im going to read (and actually finish this time) the picture of dorian gray next, and im still working on why i hate saturn by baker (i usually read graphic novels at the same time i'm reading something else.) dorian gray will be the first fiction novel i will have picked up this year, i'm much more of a non-fiction reader. wilde is clever enough to keep my attention though, from what i remember.... (lets hope so).

so, as always there's not much reason to this post, just things i have been thinking about. the bathroom is probably open now, i'm gonna use that.

filmferyou @ 2009-02-18T14:03:00

2009-02-18T22:06:19Z

it's fucking scary to see your best friend from middle school married and about to have a kid posting "i'm fat tehe" pics on facebook (note:she's mormon).

new york, new york

2009-01-08T21:39:26Z

thoughts on it:
i think it died before i got there.

it's okay though, this just proves that i'm actually european.

listen, so good.

2008-12-16T07:29:41Z

cant. stop. listening.

2008-12-08T03:20:21Z

filmferyou @ 2008-10-30T19:30:00

2008-10-31T02:30:43Z

And we're just like, how Rousseau depicts man in the state of nature:
We're undeveloped, we're ignorant, we're stupid, but we're happy.

really, really, really, really happy.

2008-09-19T02:07:25Z

Janaye,

My firstclass calendar is up to date if you want to schedule a meeting with me to go over the gear.

Great job directing yesterday. You really took control and it showed on the footage.
_____________________________________________________________
Chris Carpenter
Media Production Specialist III
Teledramatic Arts & Technology Department
http://tat.csumb.edu
California State University, Monterey Bay

Janaye Brown writes:
Hi Chris!

I was wondering if you had some spare time next week to go into the lab & help me with lighting and setting audio levels? I think I understand the basic concept, but i don't feel completely comfortable yet. Thanks in advance!

-Janaye Brown (TAT 337 m+w labs)

not enough sleep in the past three days

2008-09-15T18:08:30Z

besides the scripts i wrote from ages 10-16, i actually completed my "first" script today (for a short narrative). i'm not a writer, nor a script-er but i'm happy about it! and if i hadn't gone through 16 hours of copyright law classes this weekend i might have posted some of it online.

mostly, this is a post about how i feel happy that i didn't die of exhaustion over the weekend, stoked for treasure island this weekend, happy about film all week, happy in general. i just think i need some more sleep.

every person should see this film:

2008-09-06T03:39:41Z

janaye in college v4.0

2008-09-04T04:28:55Z

beers on any days of the week, for relaxation, not partying. class which i actually enjoy, films that move me. filming everything and anything, editing, balancing work and pleasure, not sleeping in past noon (or 10 for that matter), being a lot nicer to everyone, having great friends, loving my space, more active, constant mental stimulation, more film, more cameras, more knowledge, foreign languages, foreign people, success, explaining myself less, not worrying, and a "GOOD MORNING" every time i wake up.

quickie

2008-08-27T04:10:51Z

i dropped my italian course cos my teacher was italian. im getting tutored from my friend jasmine, she rocks, shes doing it for free, and im assessing out of the course, which could move my graduation date up to maybeee fall 09, we will see. all my classes are now film.

i forgot how much i like working nights in the library, i get good conversation with my boss and then i get hit on boys and it makes me forget how much i actually like someone and my hope is sinking low, hurrah!

oh, monterey bay area.

it always a roller coaster in monterey, but mostly i think this is what happiness feels like

2008-08-11T08:22:09Z

chanel, kirsten & brittany

brittany!

ashley!!

white trash! roommates! brittany & larry

vincey poo, and brit

get downn! larry & troy

orientation leaders! tour of the new library

random seaside smoke nights

80s! annie & brit

annie & i. hahaha

being hip with amber, downtown monterey

warm weather in monterey! beach day

climbing in the redwoods for csumb

in sf with orientation leaders

this bitch!! cheeto, devon and brittany

brittany!

orientation leaders

epic picture of brittany

<3 these kids. addi, brit and vince

jared!

jared, addy, brit!

bestie!

super koot

typical.

this is how i would explain it, it's not where i want to be, but im here, and getting the best out of it. :]

filmferyou @ 2008-07-20T04:43:00

2008-07-20T11:45:24Z

i dont know. i like your space. layers and layers and layer and layers and layers walks home at 4:15 in the morning and my stomach is upset now.

:]

2008-07-16T01:25:47Z

Stuck together, I don't like revealing secrets
I'll live inside your lips if you won't laugh.

filmferyou @ 2008-06-05T11:26:00

2008-06-05T18:26:51Z

i fucking hate being in livermore, but MGMT makes me feel way better about life.

trainspotting& me

2008-06-03T06:22:47Z

trainspotting& me, originally uploaded by genetelle.

messing with colors, turned out real nice. web cams are blurry, excuse the quality.

home gets boring:

2008-05-31T00:06:35Z

summer in livermore

2008-05-18T03:42:23Z

summer, originally uploaded by genetelle.

is me, thinking way too much about other people, myself, things, places. i'm glad ill only be here one month. at least things are in control. i miss the people in monterey, and it's been one day.

i wish i could credit this:

2008-05-16T00:58:06Z

but i can't. but this is where things begin..

perspectives from 19 year old boys

2008-05-09T05:09:06Z

who happen to be my main range of bff's in monterey, which i love. it's like having a shit load of little brothers.

anyways, im in my room while my friends are making veggie burgers (brit & i) and real burgers (all the boys), but it's mainly cos i'm having a serious clash session. but, i'll be there soon.

anyways, i just had a run in with my friend andrew that went something like this:

me: we should get that 30-pack from brittanys car
andrew: yeah, we should actually just make vince do it after hes done being gay
me: hahah, alright
andrew: but really he is hella gay, hes like working out hella and drinking all the protein shakes like cj
me: yeahhhhh
andrew: like goddd i work out, but i dont need hella muscles like cj, i just go running, they even eat the same at the dining commons, it's hella gay
me: yeah i guess you'd be hella gay if you did that too
andrew: yeah, im not trying to be hella gay

lol. vocab isn't his forte, but i'm laughing.

coming at you from the california state university- monterey bay library live at 1:23am

2008-05-07T08:29:51Z

first off, fuck you 2am closing. and fuck you student body for not taking advantage of this offer.
but i get it, you were all eating free food and doing retarded crossword puzzles at the dining commons.

anyways, this has been a mostly funny night because friends are in here, and theres like this ultimate creep guy who has attempted to hit on 7 girls in the span of 3 hours. my encounter went like this:

creepy guy: uhh, can you shut the door? (even though i have like 10,000 nasty muscles and 4 shirts on)
me: no, the door will lock.
creepy guy: uhh, can you ask your supervisor?
me: yeah.
as i walk away...
creepy guy: so, is that an anchor around your neck?
me: yeah.
creepy guy: so, uhh do you like the water?
me: mostly not
supervisor: we can't close the door, it will lock.
creepy guy: oh okay...uhh *keeps talking*
me: *blank stare*

i have amazing headphones.

anyways, point of the story, im fucking tired, stop bothering human beings with vaginas.
i gotta go push in chairs & shit, later lj world.

keeping busy, missing london.

2008-04-30T17:49:40Z

Central London, originally uploaded by genetelle.

ive been meaning to compile photos that i've taken & loved since i've been able to get my hands on a camera, so this is it. i just started yesterday, but it's going well thus far. add me as a friend or something!